Friday, April 28, 2006

Fine

Well, it's almost over.

Yesterday was my last day of class. School always ends with stress... but doesn't have to end with heartache. I guess things just happen.

If you know me, you know I'm a happy person. You know that I always put on a happy face... no matter what the occasion.

But, if you really, truly know me, you know it is false. You know that I hide things... things that appear in my head at night when I'm trying to fall asleep... something I haven't done much of for a long time.

I'm tired of school... tired of being stressed... tired of being sad... tired. Just tired.

I always say yes when I should say no. It's a vice of mine and it drains me the end.

I want to paint. I want to draw. I want to write. BUT- instead I must study.

Forgive my melodrama... but this is me.

Saturday, April 15, 2006

1 0 F A V O R I T E S:

TV show: Carnivale
Flower: Ze Passion Flowair... (said in a spanish accent... obviously)
Movie: Whale Rider
Color: minty green
Sport: swimming - the only one I can actually do
Mall: The Mountain Mall ;)
Music: showtunes
Food: CEREAL (I like to carry it around with me... as Casey will tell anyone who asks)
Season: Sprummer (between Spring and Summer. I made that word up.)

1 0 F A C T S:

Hair color: fine... it's dark brown (although I always swore I had light brown hair...)
Hair length: letting it grow
Hair style: curly as all get out
Shoe size: 7 - 71/2 (I swear my foot shrunk)
Mood: at work - so... NOT happy
Sexuality: two words: Ryan Smith

1 0 L O V E L I F E:

Have you ever been in love?: Yep.. in it right now, as a matter of fact
Do you believe in love?: Of course! I'm like Charlotte on S&theC
Why did your last relationship fail?: Because he broke up with me before prom...
Have you ever been heartbroken?: Yeah
Have you ever broken someones heart?: I think I might have
Have you ever fallen for your best friend?: No, but I fell for someone who soon became my best friend
Are you planning on getting married? Yep, but not for a while
Are you afraid of commitment?: Nope- I've been in a relationship for 3 years - I would say I am a fan of commitment

1 0 T H I S O R T H A T S:

Love or lust?: both :)
Hard liquor or beer?: girly drinks
Hook-ups or relationship?: relationship
T.V. or internet?: internet- I love looking up weird shoes
Pepsi or coke?: neither- not a soft drink fan
Wild night out or romantic night in?: both can be nice
Saturday or Sunday?: Hmmm... saturday, because you still have another day of the weekend left, and Sunday because it's lazy
Colored or black and white picture?: B&W
Phone or in person?: in person :) AND NOT AIM!

1 0 H A V E Y O U E V E R S:

Have you ever been caught sneaking out?: nope- my house is on 9 acres of woods full of bears--- I didn't have the desire to sneak out and be eaten
Have you ever skinny dipped?: Nope- but my swimsuit fell off in the ocean once
Have you ever done something you regret?: Oh yeah... too many things to mention
Have you ever bungee jumped?: GOOD GOD NO
Have you ever been on a house boat?: I think I snuck on one for a second... then got off
Have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker?: what??
Have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt?: When Ryan went to Hawaii... it was rough
Have you ever stayed up all night till the sun came up?: Oh yeah- I always regretted in the next day, though. You know--- sleep is kinda vital
Have you ever been caught by your parents with a hickey?: Never had one... they creep me out. Why do I want someone sucking so hard on my skin that it brings the blood vessels to the surface of my skin?
Have you ever been caught by your parents doing anything more than making out?: Hehe...

1 0 A R E Y O U S:
Are you missing someone right now?: sure am
Are you in love with anyone?: Yes :)
Are you happy?: Stressed, but happy
Are you talking to anyone right now?: Yep- Chris Pendley - I work with him
Are you bored?: Why the hell else would I be doing this? (Clarissa wrote this- but I agree)
Are you German?: Don't think so
Are you Irish?: I think I have some in me somewhere...
Are you Italian?: Indeed I am - a quarter Italian and a quarter Arabic. Yeah, I'm exotic, bitches
Are your parents still married?: I'm super lucky- yes
Do you like someone right now?: I like quite a few people, but the list of the dislikes would be more fun to read... :)